Thursday, August 28, 2008

My History of Writing

Having been put through the traditional American education system, I have had many years to learn about myself and my writing capabilities. But even after all of that time I have had to perfect this skill, I still find it difficult to put my ideas onto paper. More than anything else, I struggle with the translation of my thoughts and ideas to the written word no matter what the topic is. Even as I am writing now, each sentence needs to be carefully thought out before I can type it down. I’m not sure why this is; after all I have survived many English classes. From all of this time spent learning how to write, I feel that I should have at least some common structure that I would begin to naturally follow; however I don’t. To me, this is quite peculiar since a pattern is the first thing I create when confronted with any problem. I solve something once, and then I follow the same thinking process to solve it again.

For what it’s worth, I can’t blame this writers’ block on anyone but myself. All the way from kindergarten to my last year in high school I have had only amazing and creative English teachers who eventually got my creative juices flowing. They all attempted to teach methods of translating ideas, which I still can’t seem to grasp. My most memorable teacher was Ms. Wince whom I had for Honors American Literature. Out of all of them, she was the easiest to write for because of the way the material was taught. I believe in her class I came the closest to having the rare feeling that writing is easy.

In this journal entry, I am only speaking about my shortcomings in writing. So much so, that you may fall under the impression that I consider myself a poor writer. But I don’t. I know I can write when I am able to get my thought process under control and all my ideas correctly on paper. For my sake, I hope that English 111 will be a class that I find easy to write for and as always I am looking forward to improving my weakness in writing.

1 comment:

Grizzle said...

i think there is a common misconception in writing (one that I make about myself), that if we are struggling to get the ideas out it is a 'bad' thing. I don't think this is the case. Some people are just naturally judicious, and they don't want to fill the page with crap, you know? So they are constantly reigning themselves in as they think on a subject. I do this too. But I realize now that there is a time to let loose and then a time (later) to be judicious. I can't always separate the two, but it is getting better. I think what would help is to be able to write freely in an environment that doesn't reproach what we have produced. I hope you see this journal, at least in small part, as a such a venue.

thanks for you honesty.